Your internal dialogue is the conversation you have with yourself.  Most people who are struggling in some way have a negative internal dialogue.  Take a moment and evaluate yours. 

When something goes wrong, what are your first words to yourself?  When you make a mistake, do you beat yourself up immediately?  Awareness is key.  If you don't know there is a problem with your self talk, you will continue to dig deep into the struggle. 

A huge part of recovery is in changing your vocabulary and your internal dialogue.  If you answered the questions above in a negative direction - you will likely need to ask someone for help to evaluate and make some changes.  Since this is your usual (habit) - you may not be able to see where you need to make changes.  Being able to ask for help is actually a strength.